Walk away, I won't be broken again. (:

2007-11-28T16:47:00.000+08:00

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stupid gene, nv fails to irritate me ! lol

let the words remain unsaid.

2007-11-22T02:02:00.000+08:00

' love will tear us apart '
and indeed , it tore me apart .
full stop to everyth. this is soo not th ending that i wanted . byebye love ):

This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause it won't last.
Same script, different cast.

2007-11-20T01:10:00.001+08:00

I've learned...that it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

2007-11-15T00:29:00.000+08:00

Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now, sitting on God's lap.
He loves me and cries with me;
for my heart has been broken.
I so wanted to be your little girl.
I don't quite understand what has happened.
I was so excited when I began realizing my existence.

I was in a dark, yet comfortable place.
I saw I had fingers and toes.
I was pretty far along in my developing,
yet not near ready to leave my surroundings.
I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.
Even from my earliest day,
I felt a special bonding between you and me.

Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you.
Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry.
I heard Daddy yelling back.
I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon.
I wondered why you cried so much.
One day you cried almost all of the day.
I hurt for you.
I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy.

That same day, the most horrible thing happened.
A very mean monster came
into that warm, comfortable lace I was in.
I was so scared, I began screaming,
but there was no sound.
I guess they had you all pinned down
because you never once tried to help me.
Maybe you never heard me.

The monster got closer and closer
as I was screaming and screaming,
"Mommy, Mommy, help me, please; Mommy, help me."
Complete terror is all I felt.
I screamed and screamed
until I thought I couldn't anymore.

Then the monster started ripping my arm off.
It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain.
It didn't stop.
Oh, how I begged it to stop.
I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off.
Though I was in such complete pain,
I realize I was dying.
I knew I would never see your face,
or hear you say how much you love me.
I wanted to make all your tears go away.
I had so many plans to make you happy.
Now, I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered.
Though I was in utter pain and horror,
I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.

I wanted more than anything; to be your daughter.
No use now, for I was dying a painful death.
I could only imagine that terrible things
they had done to me.
I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone,
but I didn't know the words you could understand.
And soon no longer I had the breath to say them;
I was dead.

I felt myself rising.
I was being carried by a huge angle
into a big, beautiful lace.
I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.
The angle took me to Jesus and set me on His lap.
He said that He loved me, and He was my Father.
Then I was happy.
I asked Him what the thing was that killed me.
He answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, my child;
for I know how it feels."

I don't know what abortion is;
I guess that's the name of the monster.

I'm writing to say that I love you,
and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl.
I'd tried very hard to live.
I wanted to live.
I had the will, but I couldn't;
the monster was too powerful.
It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me.
It was impossible to live.
I just wanted you to know how I tried to stay with you.
I didn't want to die.

Also, Mommy,
please watch out for that abortion monster.

Mommy,
I love you and I wouldn't hate for you
to go through the kind of pain I did.
Please be careful.

Love,
Your baby girl

2007-11-14T19:05:00.000+08:00

im backkkkkkkk. hhahaaaas ! so long nv blog liaos.
been rather lazy, =/
i've been a gud gal recently ,
only like club once a week. =D
cant rmbr wad happened de past weeks,
but it wasn't good.

moonday, went movie w dar , connie & nick aft my wrk.
cant say its a good movie , but it's very funny .
BEE movie. after dat went supper w dar & connie
at geylang. yummielicious ! frog's congee...
we crap a little. den dumbass joel call me.
so i have to entertain him . cab home aft awhile..
reach hm at ard 3.... didnt go wrk for 2 days liaos.
ytd & today. hahahaas ! dunno y,
mayb de alarm clock in me somehow ran out of batt bahs.
lols. !

dar, it's just not worth.
eventually de one gettin' hurt is still u
but whatever happen,
and whatever your decision is .
i will stand by you ,
like how u stand by me.
<3

self potrait ~

<33

2007-11-14T18:51:00.000+08:00

8th nov . @ plush -

she's sooo gonna kill me if she sees this . *evil grin

i find this cuteeeeeeeeeeeee. xD

she's such a babe.

zan's fat finger ! wahahahaaa.

somehow , we 3 look alike in some way.

cut zan's fcuking finger off !!!

27th oct zouk out <3

dar ; me ; kor

phuture's toilet

we stole de gloves ! lols .

yeah .. she brings me sexybck =/

happy halloween ! -.-

2007-11-11T03:51:00.000+08:00

photos up tmr , ranting starts tmr . stay tuned ! (:

2007-10-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

i'm just too tired to blog.

* drifting away frm dis world

2007-10-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

the conversation with BEN*:

BEN: i miss you.. goodnite . sweet dreams to you

MAY: goodnite sweetie. anyw im feeling weak all over now.

BEN: why? still haven recover yet?

MAY: yes, and to make it worst. i've started taking my diet medication today. u in camp alr?

BEN: aiyo u hor , pls la tk cr of urself.. dun let ppl wry for u can?
and for wat? is there a need?

MAY: yea, there is a need. i think it's worth it. i've got no looks, so i have to wrk on my body
i'll be fine sweetie. don cha wry. eh, haven ans mi, in camp ?

BEN: no im on de way bck to camp. aiyo u are pretty enuff and u are not plump.
so why go for diet? anyw, if someone really loves u he wun mind all this minor things de la.

MAY: i dunno. im not mentally confident. so sometimes i go club i really think that im nothing compare to those pretty and sexy gals. i've got nothing. i've only got myself. so in order to make myself confident, thats de only way out. LOL. think u shld send me to mental hospital soon.

BEN: y are u so silly to have dat kind of thinking ? guys go clubbing to see those pretty gals are all just for fun. but if lets say wanna find a gd gf guys will nv find a gf who always go clubbing de la. and fyi , u are pretty as well. rmbr de 1st time we met? i find dat u r pretty n sweet.. really.
i said all this is not bcos i wanna make u feel happy, im just being honest.

MAY: are you serious? nah, it cant be true.

BEN: i meant what i've said. if you chose not to believe den nvm lor. really la , silly !

MAY: lols ! whatever it is. Thanks sweet !

BEN: for what? y shld u be thankful to me, for being honest? i don see any reasons in lying either. all right, rmbr u must noe how to control ur diet, not just by skippin ur meals. it doesnt helps anyway.

and the conversation goes on & on ,
he didnt agree on me diet-ing.
but he respects what im doing.
awwww, aint he sweet?

*the name has been changed to protect whatever that needs to be protected ! rofl

2007-10-14T21:25:00.000+08:00

i've just started taking my diet medication.
and i'm feeling weak all over already.
and IM SERIOUS, im feeling weak all over.
tell me to walk along the line now and i think most
probabely i wun be able to do it. YES IM DAT WEAK NOW !
body's hot and it feels like it's gonna explode from inside.
xinkuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu ~ T.T

need to tahan this for 3mths or more.
so pls don agitate me anymore.
i just dun want to break dwn...

p.s : did i ever told you guys this kind of medication will cause mentally unstable?

2007-10-12T15:52:00.000+08:00

it's sad thou having to see his true colours.
nothing but untrue.
i knew it , i just knew it !
im sorry i've violated ur privacy,
but i just wanna noe de truth
thou it's hurting but i'll get over it.

calling people loves,darling,honey.
which you had never call me once . NEVER
if you dont have feelings for me , tell me
im not those kind of gal who cant accept it
you say you are not ready for a relationship

FINE! i wait. but what have i got in return ?
seeing those msg " love you " ....
thinking back, you had nv said dat to me too .
so don ever ever tell me you do have feelings for me dude.
im not even qualified to be your fling right ?
im just nothing but a sex partner, right dear ?

(: you are dat beast , but i know i'll never be your beauty.
de heartbreak u gave me is so deadly.
im not gonna fall for your traps anymore.

i simply despise you beast .

2007-10-08T22:13:00.000+08:00

omg i kena toto ! $290~ just finished my facial. so 'shiok'. rofl..
it's been so long. last time got boyfriend simply got no time
to facial and stuffs. aft work only,
pei boifriend , pei boifriend and PEI BOIFRIEND!
wahahaha~
think must go bck to diet liaos. getting fatter ! WTH

had fun shopping w dar ytd. wahahaha~ so long nv shop like dis liaos
spent quite a lot . gosh ! finally bought my DIOR foundation.
*proud face
also bought :
2 skinnies
1 shorts
1 cardigan
2 tees
eyelashes,mascara blah blah blahs ~
awaiting more fun and strange things when we go out de nxt time k dar ?

LOVE YA !

2007-10-07T02:24:00.000+08:00

everyone around me is attached.
think only left me and dar still left on de shelf.
hahaa. okies, not left on de shelf..
we are just enjoying life of being single.(:

get a life fcuker

2007-10-03T00:23:00.000+08:00

well, to whoever you are.
im sorry that i've more male friends.
but does that affect you in any way?
or are you just being jealous that no guys are around you ?
the guys around me are all my friends, not my fling.
and do you have any problems with that ?
Mr president did not say dat it's against the law.
so why are you worrying?
If you need guys, just let me know...
I will intro to you de.
im not selfish.
buy will you please,
mind de words you are saying ?
it's not hurting me thou..
i just want you to get a life, instead of going
other ppl's blog and tag about all dis loads of shits..
you are just being ignorant.
you are the one being laughed at after all.

cant be bothered abt dis kind of ppl.wasting of time and energy only.
sigh! why cant ppl just get a life...
oh well, maybe life's just a little unfair.
so i dun blame he/she....
MUST be patient with kids.HAHAHAAA!

hmmm, my tattoo somehow got smudged.
i've got no idea how it get smudge, thinking of go and touched up on it.
buahahahaa. maybe next month go get a new tattoo.
wanna put a sheep. LOL !!

cal's said : " Meh meh goes bahhhhh! "

2007-10-02T03:09:00.000+08:00

OMG !!! holy shit. what had I done ?
damnnnnnnn.
it's all crap man.
guess i've fcuking ruin it all again.
DIAO !
crysssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss*

p.s: i want de same skin as de both of eu ):

no words just pics

2007-09-30T16:21:00.001+08:00

sly on stage

he's just 10 foots away frm me . OMG !

OMG. he pose for me ! *faints

In case eu dunno, i was at Dragonfly. Not sylvester's
concert. LOL !! he got shake my hand sia . OMG !
not gonna wash hand... EVER !

A GIFT FRM BRAN.
see compare to my bottle it's so much bigger.

my best buddy ever..

sally ; it's a miracle to see her at rage (:

him ; gay her ; les

notice all de pics... u can only see 2 black lines. lols

Untrue Love

2007-09-25T13:19:00.000+08:00

Were you there the day the music died?
Did you want to hold me when i cried?
Did you fight to stand there by my side
When i was in despair?

Did you keep me safe within your arms?
Did you protect me from all harm?
Or did you win me over your charm,
Running fingers thru my hair?

Did you simply see your chance
To get what you wanted with one dance?
You saw me hurting with one glance
And decided to fool my heart.

And like a fool I went along.
When we dance I sang the songs.
I never thought I could be wrong,
So I gladly played my part.

And now I lie here, wondering why
I ever thought that you and I
Could fall in love and never cry
Again for what we've done.

I'm terrified of the way I feel
Now that I know your love isn't real.
I'm not sure my heart will ever heal,
Because all I can do is run.

I run from the future, but mostly the past
Through the fields and the forest, so very fast.
Through the moonlight that midnight has cast
Onto my crying face.

I've prayed that you would decide to stay,
That I could keep you one more day,
And that you wouldn't turn away
And leave me in this place.

But I've fooled myself for much too long,
That our love was not a tragic song.
And i assume you will be gone,
No time left to borrow.

I'll try to smile when you say good-bye
And wait until you're gone to cry.
You'll be strong, and so will I
Although I feel such sorrow.

And so I'll face this world alone,
Cold as ice, abd hard as stone,
Until a true love comes along.
I've nothing left to fear

But when our love has long been dead,
When we've moved on to the road ahead,
And I'm lying wide awake in bed,
Your memory will be here.

you play your game, and i play my part

memories o4dec'o4

2007-09-23T22:03:00.000+08:00

left over memories of us (:

im sorry i hurt you, back then

got no idea why i keep thinking about ivan recently .
-.- it's so weird.
hmmm, in case eu dunno.
he's my EX bf.
erm.. quite EX EX EX. lol !
we were tgt for 1 & a 1/2 year.

from o4deco4-17juneo6..

till now , i wouldn't find any one better den him.
in face among all my boyfriends
he treats me de best
our love back den was amazing sweet,
de way we used to love ea other...
got no words to describe
just faded memories of him

i've never let regret gets into me
but this time round,
i really regretted letting him go
it has been 1year 3 months and 6 days,
since we broke up..
and ever after dat particular day
i no longer gets to see him

due to too getting used of each other
back den , i thought its not love anymore
i thought it was just commitment
and dats why im still stuck with him
well, maybe i was wrong

back then, he was a private student
broke with no money
and i didnt earn much then
so eventually
we quarrel evryday
not only money dat we quarrel about
we quarrel ,
over who should hug who to slp tonight
over the computer
over cigarettes
over who washes the clothes
over who throws de rubbish
over going out too late
over too many guy/girl friends

there's nothing under the sun, dat we didn't quarrel before.
but we will be ok , before the clock strikes 12.
friends & families all think dat we are a cute couple (:

back den i was 15 and he 21.
15=unsensible kid
21=adult
who would have thought we got tgt?
he was the sweetest dat i've met
he gave me the best memories
but i know all good things must come to an end
its me who duno how to cherish you back then
that's my greatest regret over my 18years
i've grew up alot over the years
thankkyou for your thoughtfulness and everything
you've done for me (:

but if u were to come back to me
no, we will never be together again
cos i had never believe in patching up
it's just ain't the same anymore

about you, your memories
will forever be well kept in my heart (:

IvanYapJianMing-

it would have been 3years5months and 11days if we are still tgt (: sweet

Inside

2007-09-23T18:17:00.000+08:00

Bottled up inside
Are the words I never said,
The feelings that i hide,
The lines you never read.

You can see it in my eyes,
Read it on my face:
Trapped inside are lies
Of the past i cant replaced.

With memories that linger-
Won't seem to go away.
Why can't I be happier?
Today's a brand-new day.

Yesterday are over,
Even though the hurting's not.
Nothing lasts forever,
I must cherish what I've got.

Don't take my love for granted,
For soon it will be gone-
All you ever wanted
Of the love you thought you'd won.

The hurt I'm feeling now
Won't disappear overnight,
But someway,somehow,
Everything will turn out all right,

No more wishing for the past.
It wasn't meant to be.
It didn't seem to last,
So I have to set him free.

OMFG.

2007-09-23T18:04:00.000+08:00

i spent 4hrs changing my skin and putting songs in my friendster.
!@#$%^&*
nb! almost went crazy.
just now ordered mac,
thanks to shyan's idea lahs !
cos im fooking hungry and no one's home.

de delivery man came,
and ask mi to check.
i like check check check.
ok liao den pass him de money..

den..............
he ask mi 'ARE u may?'
i looked up ....
and i was like WTH !
NICK!!! (last time always hangout at causeway point de)

NAbei , my make up not on .
tied my hair like an aunty.
wearing pyjamas..
AND de best thing is ....
I didnt put my bra on !!!
What The Hell lahx......

Roars !!!! I quickly say byebye den run to my room liaos
T.T

and everyone thinks ME being single is amazing.

Beautiful girl- by jojo

2007-09-23T14:30:00.000+08:00

Im way too cool for ya boy
That's why it'll never work
I'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over

Damn all these beautiful girls
We're only gonna do your dirt
We'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over

Yeah yeah

I remember when
I was hanging with my friends
That's when I caught your eye
You thought that I was fly
Right then you wished that I would be your baby (be your baby)
You try to get some game
Asking me girl what ya name
All that ice upon ya chain
So I asked you the same
Something tells me that we have fun together (fun together)

I ain't easy to find
I'm a one of a kind
Oh when I judge your wine
I know your only mine
Tonight is yours
Tomorrow is for another guy (another guy)

I'm way too cool for ya boy
That's why it'll never work
I'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
We're only gonna do your dirt
We'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over

You've been calling me
Leaving messages all week
Was your curiousity
Got ya knees weak
I'm not looking for a man
So I don't want no confusion (no confusion)
I took ya to the floor
Got ya begging me for more
But that was my queue to go
So I hit the door
I let you hot
With your mind used to running wild (running wild)

I ain't easy to find
I'm a one of a kind
Oh when I judge your wine
I know your only mine
If you stick around
Be careful not to fall in love (fall in love)

I'm way too cool for ya boy
That's why it'll never work
I'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
We're only gonna do your dirt
We'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over

Now a couple months have past
Never thought that this would last
Oh everybody asked
How ya got a girl like that
But you should've known
That nothing lasts forever (lasts forever)
I mashed up ya mind
When I tell you lies
But boy don't be suprised
That I'm seeing other guys
I'm too young to settle
And you should've known better (known better)
Damn all these beautiful girls (you should have known)
We're only gonna do your dirt (cos I'll have)
I'll have you suicidal, suicidalWhen I say it's over+++

2007-09-18T09:32:00.000+08:00

ytd sleep so fooking early.
lols.
nobody believe im sick.
SIGH.
my body was feeling so hot,
but im feeling cold in de meantime.

im trembling all over,
tossing n turning on my bed.
and de 1st person dat came to mind,
SAMUEL LEE.

i wish he was here by my side.
cuddling me to sleep,
and look after me de whole nite.
you see, i love to think abt stuffs..
dat will nv happen.

i feel so painful last night,
my whole body just feel so weak.
finally, i break down and cry.
i wouldn't take it anymore.
SIGH`

i love de dawn, it's just so beautiful.

2007-09-17T21:26:00.000+08:00

eric's phone.

his name, jo chow (:

a new friend, ben.

hapi bdae dear boii ._.

wei sheng &eric quarrelling. *trembling =x

my pillar of strength.

look at my cheeks, yucks!

you might think that's someth wrong w all de pics.
its ALL guys right ?
i've no choice lahx.
all brandon's frens.
wad can i do ?
HAHAA~. had fun anyw .

for ONCE i was more sober den bran & eric.
WOOHOO. =x *proud .. LALLAA~
they went drinking again, WTH !

sigh, just now, for no good reasons.
i vomit. -_-
and yes i saw bl0od.
guess i have to stop drinking for a period of time.
SOBS!

2007-09-16T17:05:00.001+08:00

i loathe youu sam .
u fcuking will nv understand my feelings.
well, i hope u will get together w whoever that treats
u nice aso k ?
sigh , guess i've ruined it all .

2007-09-16T16:39:00.000+08:00

me and eric. mwahs (:

When one door closes,

another opens but when we often look so long

and so regretfully upon the closed door that we

do not see the one which has opened for us.

-Alexander Graham Bell

2007-09-16T16:11:00.000+08:00

this IS brandon & me , my face cramp (:

woot , lols. seriously dunno wad to blog man .
hmmm, friday when to interview a job.
wrkin in pub. i think monday starting wrk ba.
hahaa. haven heard frm samuel for sometimes ler.
i guess he read my blog ? LOL, dunno.
this few days haven been EMO at all lahz.
maybe one of de reasons is i never think of him ler bahs.

i've been really broke recently, but i went drinking EVRYDAY.
know y ? brandon had been supporting me.
he pays for my meals,
he pays for my drinks,
he pays for my cab fares.
whatever i do, he pays.

LOL, he acts like my bf but he's not.
he just totally treat me as a fren only.
wad a NICCEEEE fren. LOL !
everyday is like heaven to me lahs.
they really brought me joy and laughter.
LOTS of it. (:
LOVES*

2007-09-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

my friends, have been there for me .
this few days.
Be it , good or bad .
they are there for me .
i really appreciate it. (:
this few days had been tired for me .
both emotionally and physcially.
reading the chat logs every night
that we chatted on 9th sept.

That conversation totally breaks my heart.
but i just got no idea why i keep viewing it,
over and over again.
Somebody tell me what to do ?
he's driving me insane, making me going mad.
stop playing mind game with me dude.
I've got not much strength left.
All is left in me is a soul that have
got nothing left but emptiness.
Sigh !

but i guess im lucky ,
to have my peeps around me .
Filling me with love and joy,
telling me that they will always be there for me.
Im contented. Really, I am .

I've met this guy named ....
Well, lets just call me E .
He's 27 , and yes he is kinda cute. HAHAA `
ok, forget bout dat point .
He's a guy that's very good at cheering ppl up.
And always standing up for his friends,
Even though they're in the wrong.
Always cracking silly jokes,
which i can't help but giggle at those.
He has been a really nicee friend towards me .
He said to me once " May, you know , you
are a really sweet girl . And i dont wanna see you cry anymore.
And if ever feel like crying again, call me . i'll definately
make you smile."
This really touches me .

hmmm , guess wat ? i guess i don't need to cry for
him anymore. because for all i know , my friends gonna
be there for me , no matter wad.
And i don't have to think of him anymore.

I dun want love anymore.
Or rather , i dun want him anymore.
It just makes no sense to continue clinging on him ,
hoping for a miracle to appear.
I just wanna move on .

Just pray that you will brighten up ,
and hope that everyth will went smoothly for u.
Thou the affectionate is not there anymore.
Im still your fren thou ,
you can come to me when you needs me.
Im always here , rmbr ? (:

Cheers to all my peeps , loves*

2007-09-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

I didn't want to admit it ,
It was easier to lie,
And hide the hurt and emptiness,
To smile instead of cry.

I didn't want to face the fact,
My life is full of pain,
And I long to stop my bleeding heart,
And maybe smile again.

Cause I feel oh-so-forgotten,
So betrayed and so alone,
Without a trace of forgivemess,
And no soul to call my own.

I didn't want to admit the fact,
I cannot spread my wings,
And my happiness has melted,
Into tears and other things.

It's hard for me to hide the facts,
My wishes have no home,
And return to anguish,
Bow my head and cry alone.

2007-09-10T06:13:00.000+08:00

he's getting so sweet, towards me .
mayb he's just trying to be nice again.
hmmm, WTH.
im gonna faint soon , lack of sleep !

i love de way u kissed my forehead .

2007-09-09T14:49:00.001+08:00

im sitting at one corner drawing circle.
*drawinggggg.....

YES LA , im emo .

2007-09-09T12:01:00.000+08:00

hiak , been some times since i last blogged.
hmmm. TIRED. is all i can say.
ytd went drinking w branson and his frens.
i can tell eu im totally gone lahz.
seriously who touch me i aso dunno. LOL.
i rmbr knocking my head on de wall,
twice. ACCIDENTLY.

know why i still rmbr ? cos it still hurts.
HAHA. nb lah. i think its swallon lors.-.-
knew this cute guy,he's brandon's fren. LOL.
thereeee i go away. rofl , just find him cute nia .
and another fren of brandon's fren.
got no idea wad's her name ,
but i can tell.
she's a gud fren.
she took really gud care of me last night.
thanks gal <3

overall , last night was fun.
but it will be more fun if i was not drunk . DAMN !
hahaas. anyway,
i dont think having a boyfriend is dat impt to me
ANYMORE.
i dont need love anymore,
i guess.
it's making me sick , over & over again.
it's not impt anymore,
i dont wanna get together with anyone now.
i just wanna be single ,
single is cool . and yea ,

im afraid to commit already.

2007-09-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

A boyfriend should wrap his armsaround his girl.
Tell her that she's his entire world.
Kiss her nose hinting you want to make-out.
Hug her close when the weather's cold.
Whisper things she wants to be told.

Make her feel wanted every chance you get.
Stick up for her when she is wronged.
Put your arms around her.
Hold her close to your heart.
For she'll love you even when youaren't perfect.

She'll love you just for you.
But just in case you mess up bad.
There's only one thing to do.Hug her tight and hold her close.
Whisper softly in her ear..."I love you".

i wish i had one to do dat to me too =(

2007-09-01T17:43:00.000+08:00

ytd went drinking w my buddy jonathan .. freaking long didnt see him already .
we went frm places to places . wouldnt find a nice place to chill and drink ..
planned to go harry's but den dats no full bottle. so we went to a pub cum club at boat quay lorrs. its was all right la . fun with jonathan and hua .. got really drunk last nite , but i was sober
de whole nite . as in i noe wad im doing .

samuel came ard 3.30 .. i only get to see him like once a week lahz . haiz ..
i think he likes wantong ! i dunno lah . nb , veri pissed off man . ...............

dunno how to continue frm here . . last nite with him was sweet . really .. i get to kiss him
and everyth . get to hug him really close . althought i noe he dun feel anyth , but i feel loved .

ard 6 he and tong share a cab hm . when he reaches home , he msg mi ... and i asked him , y cant
he give us a chance ... he said he dunwan to hurt mi . tears really roll dwn ....
i noe he's just giving himself excuses .....

2007-08-31T00:37:00.000+08:00

today whole day raining la , BORED ! didnt manage to hit my sale ...
cos it kept raining . HUR HUR ! allan was stress today i can tell ! lols.
bcos of dat stupid tiger lahz .. CB ! =/

helped ahweii style his hair today . he likes it , and wants mi to style for him everyday .
DOTS ! waste my wax only lahz .. lols ! but wrking at market street is fun ..
really veri fun ... no stress , jus de seven of us . although we lack of ppl , but we are HAPPY .
we work as a team , we coordinate very well .. just like a family . HEES ..

samuel msg-ed mi just moments ago , asking mi to go late nite movie w him . but i was already at home .. HAHAA ! so ya , didnt get to mit up . but i was happy ..
at least he ask mi out .... rofl ! i seriously do miss him ... ALOT .

2007-08-30T00:24:00.000+08:00

1st post , dunno wad to post about . just feel like posting . hahaa .
hmmm , i kinda miss sam thou , misses his touch . but ii noe he wun care less .
so ya , hahaaa . haven seen him for quite sometimes . ever since last fri i went to wait for him to finish work . l0on and joel were there too . we play daidi while waiting , loon piggy-back mi across de bridge cos i said i dun feel like moving . hahaaa .. yea , loon was gud to me .
but ii dunno why , i just cant .. jus cant make myself have feelings for him .
i wanted a bf who treat mi really nice , like how loon treats me ... but instead i fell for a devil .
OH well , maybe dats life . hahaa ....

haven seen my dearest gals for quite sometimes , shan & siwei . hahaaa .. they are busy w their nite time job , and im busy w my daytime job . so ya, basically got no time to mit them at all .
and 1 thing for sure im freaking BROKE ! cant even paid for a can of coke . yea , im DAT broke !
siannnnnnn . 7 more daes to get paid .

DARRRR , i wanna go tann - ing . sobs ! now eu've got ur tattoo . tan simi sai la . LOLS !
!@#$%^&*()_

2007-08-28T23:34:00.001+08:00

okays .. test test test :)